Teach Us To Number Our Days
Dance of the Sugarplum. The Nutcracker. Hearing that song being played signals the Holidays are nearing.
In my world, it means and has meant, the frenzy of the ballet season is upon us. Long rehearsals. Excerpt Appearances. Tech rehearsals. Numerous shows. Volunteering. False eyelashes. Pointe shoes. Tons of quick changes.
It is the most fatiguing time of the ballet season. So when my youngest daughter casually mentioned how many more weeks before the “frenzy” begins, I swear I felt I was breaking out in hives. And I thought to myself how much longer before this is over. And then I thought to myself how much longer.
And I answered. My daughter is in 10th grade. So probably two more years. TWO. And that’s if GOD says so.
And at that moment the scripture from Psalm 90:12 came roaring like crashing waves to the forefront of my mind. “Teach me to number our days, that we may apply our hearts to wisdom”. So many days, probably more now than ever since I lost my father in March, I will say “where has time gone?” Why are my children no longer small girls? Why are my nephew and niece no longer babies? Why are the “youth” of the church looking at me with engagement rings on outstretched hands? Or telling me we just celebrated five years of marriage? Or we are expecting another baby? WHY? I keep scratching my head wondering when did we get here. Why is time seemingly moving so fast?
Well, once I realized my daughter might be dancing in the Nutcracker two more times -if the Lord wills it to be so- I paused and numbered. Two. TWO.
And since I have now numbered the days, I have decided to sit fully in the moment of the chaos. Zillions of hair pins. Smelly shoes. Eager crowds. Bags upon bags of epsom salt. Every twirl. Every bow. Every moment.
Because once the days are over, they are over. Never to be anymore. I do not want to look back with regret. I want to know I cherished every. Single. Moment.
When you find yourself rushing time away, stop and number the days. Maybe you too will take pause. And take a seat. And take it all in.
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