I Am Deeply Grieved

Have you ever been deeply grieved? Life has not felt the kindest? It is quite chaotic. You sit in frustration and confusion. You are full of questions. You feel alone. You have been betrayed. You have worked hard and you have seemingly nothing to show for it. You wonder why your best laid plans have not been realized. You feel as though you are on a conveyor belt - being moved from one trial and circumstance to another. 

You seek security and solace and answers. You look to those you have “taken along” when you feel “sorrowful and troubled” only to find they are “sleeping” on you. You “go a little farther”. You fall face down praying “Lord remove this”. Have you ever been that deeply grieved? I have. I am. I approach a season of facing not only memories of one of the most difficult times of my life, but also in the midst of another difficult time in life layering on top of those painful memories.  Truly, I can say as Jesus said in Matthew 26:38 “I am deeply grieved.” I have absolutely no idea of what to do.  Where to turn.  To whom to speak. All I can do is as Jesus did.  Go a “little farther”. Right there is where He found the place to fall down on His face.  To cry out “My Father”. Still deeply grieved.  Still in same circumstances. Still others are sleep. “My Father”... #MoMusing #pondering #iamdeeplygrieved #life #overwhelming #difficulttime #March #birth #death #rebirth #whattodo #howtodo #go #littlefarther #MyFather #removethis  #notmywill #butYourwill #itisbitter #dontgivemepatanswers #NOCHRISTIANESE #Justgiveme #Christ #fellowshipinHissuffering #powerofHisressurection #hereiam #stirringthegift #journaling #birthing #thawing